Capiche.

I'm Rachel. I'm a mum and I like sunshine, great music, fruit, beaches, being outdoors, making things, road trips, funny movies, photography, Formula 1 racing and most geeky things. Sometimes NSFW.

On feeling worthless

Things are still the same as they were two weeks ago.

He still wants me to reconsider, still won’t take no for an answer, but still won’t give me any space.

When I first told him, we were laying next to each other on our bed, not touching, and I asked him if he truly didn’t see this coming.

He said, “I knew I treated you like shit, but I never thought you’d break up with me.”

I just can’t get past that. How can he consciously treat me that way, over such a large period of time? How did he never stop and think ‘she doesn’t deserve this, I need to sort my shit out’?!

I feel like I was worth so little to him that he couldn’t even treat me like I mattered.

That’s why I can’t reconsider. I don’t think I can forgive that. And I know I can’t forget.

2 months ago on February 21, 2012 at 02:39pm with 5 notes
  1. fwarg said: you are worth more, you are smart and considerate and loving. you are beautiful and vivacious. your children are deserve more, too.
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